Locker Philosophy

So its time, I believe its incredibly long overdue for me to get my thoughts out onto paper. Or internet, whatever, same thing. I’ve always found writing my thoughts out and just letting words flow to be cathartic and insightful. Its a form of introspection that not a lot of people get the chance to experience, which is part of why Tumblr is so special in the effect that it can have on me. Aside for using it for endless scrolling of interesting stuff that people blog. 

Anyway, summer is upon me. Biking around town today, going to a few garage sales, I realized that the extent of my summer is what I’ll make of it. I can choose to sit at home all day, do nothing but sleep, eat, computer, and video games for the next two and a half weeks. Or, I can go out, be social, and enjoy the beautiful and wonderful aspects of summer. That’s the dilema really, I gave up a busy summer of work and extraordinary experience for the chance to have a free summer. But at what cost does that freedom come? How does one prevent summer laziness from taking hold without mandatory activities? Those are some of my more pressing concerns as I reach the apex of my summer, with about 5 and half weeks of summer home time still to come.

Most recently, I’ve been enjoying the little things. Hanging out with friends not really doing much of anything, yet having fun doing it. Just having a decent conversation with people I like. Which brings me to something else that has been bothering me. The death of the drive for conversation. 

- I can distinctly remember myself during times when social experiences drove me to converse with people for hours. About nothing, anything, or everything, it didn’t matter, so long as I was communicating with interesting people. Or people that I was interested in. And yet, whatever once fueled me to pursue such conversations has faded, and I no longer have the same desire. Its as if something is just halting my passion for conversation and communication, stifling my presence beyond myself. What I think it may be was the fact that only a few days ago I was planning on being gone for the next month, so hopefully I will be able to reclaim such characteristics that made my time more exciting and enjoyable. 

Like I said earlier, I do so dearly enjoy writing down my thoughts, since now they are much more neat and in order than they were before this post. Basically, I guess if anyone were to read this, I’d greatly appreciate a bit of conversation or simply interesting interaction at some point or another. I have been deprived socially and intellectually recently, and I would love to rectify that.